So I think we all know how stressful school can be :'( I've been busy with homework, after homework, after homework, and just when I think I've finally caught up I get another curve ball thrown at me.
On top of that I've been trying to work on my health. I've been so stressed and anxious about my future lately, but I think I've come to terms with not having control of everything. And as Rainbow suggested in her amazing blog post (Check it out here) it's okay to not have control of everything. It's much more important to take things at your own pace. So I've taken control of the things that I can control. I applied for a job :D and I got it!! So I'm so excited about that, I've been worrying about not having money in my bank account. Now I know that money shouldn't be a problem, of course I have my parents and I know that they would help me out with whatever I need, but it's also time that I start doing things on my own. I need to not be so dependent on them because in about two weeks I'll be 19 and that's one year closer to 20 :O. I'll be done with my teen years and now I'll be an actual adult! So I need to gain some independence and confidence. I've been putting off getting a job for a while now because I was scared that after I got a job it was like I officially grew up. Now I've had a job before but it didn't really feel that different because it was at the dorms where I was living last year so it didn't really feel like a "job job" to me. But now it's official and I think I'm ready this time :)
One technique that I've found really helps me out is listening to music. It seriously does help! I like to just lay in bed, turn off my lights, turn on my christmas lights and just listen. I listen to the music and I listen to myself. And I let myself feel whatever it is that I need to feel. I also focus on my breathing because improper breathing is the number one contributor of anxiety and stress. I also found that whenever I'm feeling anxious it always helps to listen to a guided mediation in my car before going on about my day. It really helps to bring the anxiety levels down and get my breathing on track.
Some other updates :)
- I was published in my schools news paper :D Which was really exciting! I wouldn't say I'm a great writer but I made it on their so yay :D
- I also finally finished a video that I've been trying to finish for about 2 weeks now haha. I hope you guys enjoy :)